“I’m Tired” (Song)

“I’m Tired” is basically a song written out of honesty. Whether we want to admit it or not, I think all christians struggle with their faith at times. The speaker in the song is contemplating his faith and at first he questions if God really has kept His promises and admits that he’s struggling, but then he realizes that perhaps his perception is wrong. Slowly he starts to realize he’s sitting their questioning God, but what has he himself done to be the hands and feet of God? Then the bridge is basically him admitting to and letting go of all the laziness, lies, shortcomings, and complacency that he’s held onto for years.


Where’s the hope? Where’s the love? Has it bid bon voyage?

Oh God, Your promises, were they just mirages?

I’m strugglin’, worryin’, everyday

but then, in a whisper, I hear You say


chorus-I love you more than you can imagine

My plans for you, are better than you can fathom

I am with you, do not fear

please follow the direction I steer


could it be, happiness, is not a guarantee

but rather, happiness, is actually a journey

and the change, I’m looking for, starts with I

instead of just, looking to, looking to the other guy


chorus-I love you more than you can imagine

My plans for you, are better than you can fathom

I am with you, do not fear

please follow the direction I steer


I’m tired of just waiting

for things to get better

I’m tired of just haiting

my fellow sinner

I’m tired of just saying

that I’m alright

I’m tired of delaying

walking in Your light

I’m aware of my misses

but I’m trustin’ Your promises

as I start and end my day

I wanna hear You say



I love you more than you can imagine

My plans for you, are better than you can fathom

I am with you, do not fear

please follow the direction I steer


One minute blogs- keeping your testimony when responding

When a christian questions whether gay marriage is right or wrong, why do some react the way that they do? Do we honestly believe that condemnation is going to change their mind? That sarcasm is going to change their mind? That a nifty “meme” is going to make them realize their “ignorant ways”? Your testimony is not only shown in your beliefs, but how you react when some one questions your beliefs. And you never know what your actions can do. I’ve met many more non-believers who list christians and churches as the reason why they’re not interested in religion, than ones who list God or Jesus as the reason.

That time when an athesit helped my faith…wait what?

It’s freshman year, me and my friend Keith are sitting on our side of the dorm room trying to figure things out. Up until a week ago we were told we were rooming with each other, which was awesome and had us both thrilled, however on move in day there was a third person who walked into the room with a bag on his back, his name Jesse. Me and Keith were trying to figure out just who this mysterious guy was, he seemed older, witty, and he watched Foxnews, CNN, and Comedy Central which was confusing to say the least. Long story short we all three came to grow pretty close. Everyday seemed to bring a new memory (whether good, bad, or ones that led to stories that I’ve told hundreds of times). One of the things that made it so cool, was that there were so many reasons why, by society’s standards, we shouldn’t have been friends. I was by all means a conservative, sure I consider myself pretty middle on many subjects, but in the grand scheme of things I’m still pretty right leaning. Jesse was liberal on many subjects. As far as faith goes I came into college as a huge Christian. I had volunteered at Three Crosses for a couple of summers, I helped out at a Hispanic mission, I was in a Christian band, and the school I attended had taught me the Bible from kindergarten and had given me so many modern day examples of God acting miraculously. Jesse on the other hand was an atheist who looked to science to give a reasonable explanation to everything in the world. As we lived together though it amazed me how well we got along. Every time we’d go to a gas station he’d offer to buy us something, every time I told him about something our church was doing he seemed to be interested in it, and everytime a friend of mine or family member of mine came to visit the room Jesse was always as nice as could be. And as far as witty, he’d try to explain scientific things to me and I’d just nod in agreement (always thinking to myself “wow I feel really stupid right now”). When freshmen  year finally came to a close I left CSU a lot deeper in my faith, because of an atheist, for a few reasons.


A huge reason was how he treated others and his respect for others. It was incredible how many fellow classmates saw my accomplishments and outreach work as unimpressive. It was disheartening to be at a Christian college where it seemed like so many people viewed me as nothing special. But with Jesse it was different, he was blown away when he found out I served on my Town’s Council and he always seemed to be interested with what we were doing at my church. And as far as religion we never had an argument about it. There was always a respect for each others beliefs, even though we disagreed, there was never a hateful comment made between us.


Another thing was his cleverness. I think a lot of times Christians view nonbelievers as idiots, but I didn’t see Jesse as an idiot. In the field of science he was pretty clever, I’m not sure if he was super smart or if I was just that ignorant, but he taught me new theories and experiments all of the time. He was anything but an idiot.


Finally, it was something he said one of the last nights we were in the dorm room together that has stuck with me. We had stayed up talking when he told how incredible it was when he saw Christians acting so brotherly to others, he said it was amazing how Christians would go out of their way to help their brothers and strangers. And for the rest of the evening it was stuck in my head. The biggest reason being, an atheist, someone that some churches preach to be the scum of the earth, was impressed by something that even many Christians find too crazy to live out.

At the end of my freshman year, I did indeed leave college with a stronger faith and better grasp on what my faith was about. My advisor had helped, some professors helped, and a few friends helped, but one of the biggest reasons, was all because of one, single, atheist.

Happy, Happy, Happy

That’s the quote from Mr. Duck Commander himself, Phil Robertson. When Phil was asked what the catchphrase meant he responded “Before I got converted to Christianity there wasn’t too much happiness around, but then after I got saved I looked around and realized the joy I had and the only way I could explain it was ‘Happy, Happy, Happy’”. As I thought about the quote, it started to make more and more sense, especially when you realize just how blessed we are to have a Savior and how much He blesses us. I could post paragraph after paragraph about the happiness that has came from blessings God has given me, but personally I don’t think the good times are where true joy is shown. It’s the smile in the middle of devastation, it’s the laugh you let out when everything, all day has gone wrong, it’s the happiness you still have when the closest person to you stabs you in the back.

In a Christian’s life, we are plagued by many bad things. It’s pretty safe to say that everyone will go through at least one bad relationship, one bad job, one betrayal from a friend, one health ailment, one disagreement with a government official (it might be safe to say “10”), one moment when we look in the mirror and think “Gahhhh why couldn’t I have been born with a different ____?!?!”. Bad times are going to come, just like good times are, it’s just a fact of life, but there’s no reason to freak out and assume our world is crashing down. James 1:2-4 says “Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” James is literally telling us to be joyful when disaster strikes (note there isn’t any mention of spamming facebook with “woe is me” posts) and that we should be aware that through these trials, we will be bettered because of them. 1 Peter 1:4 says “But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when His glory is revealed” this speaks volumes , to me, on two accounts. First it reminds us that Christ Himself suffered, whether it was His best friends deserting Him or being putting to death for literally doing nothing wrong, Christ had it pretty rough, secondly it shows that there is purpose for the trial. Now we may figure out the point right off the bat, or we may go our whole life without knowing the purpose, but there is a purpose nonetheless!

In a world where there are many uncertainties, we can be certain that these uncertainties are best faced with a trust in God and a happiness in our heart.

If a Tree Falls in the Woods…

and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound? It’s an age old debate, with great points on both sides. The main argument boils down to “How can it make a noise if no one is there to hear it?”. It’s a pretty sound argument at first, think about it, there’s not people paying attention, word of the tree falling probably wont reach many people and even if it does, it will probably take a good while to reach those who do hear about it. However once you take time to truly consider it, you realize the answer is not hard. It doesn’t matter if there’s  people around or not, the tree fell AND made a noise. The fact that no one heard it, doesn’t take away the fact that it did happen.


This mindset parallels Christian living very well. Time and time again the Bible tells us we’re called to help others, the message of serving others literally came out of Jesus’ lips multiple times! But how often do we follow through? If we’re honest, we miss out on opportunities daily. Why? Personally I think a huge reason is because we want actions that cause a huge ripple affect and yield results immediately instead of small random acts .We see great acts of serving, such as a mission trip to a third world country or donating $10,000 to a charity as awesome things (which they are) but then we see other actions and write them off as worthless. We pass up complimenting our waiter/waitress when they look sad, we see a donation box and walk by it because we think the $5 in our pocket wont do them any real good. We lose the simple truth that it’s the pure heart acting to be the hands and feet of Christ that matters, not how grand the scale of what we did is. It doesn’t matter if you change the world or change someone’s world, if a million people see or no one sees, don’t pass up an opportunity to make a difference, even the smallest act, can change a life forever.

Walking the Walk and Talking the Talk

It was Friday morning around 9:30am at Three Crosses (the outreach I work at). A kid by the name of Champ was standing in front of me and I was disciplining him for throwing water on another kid. As he explained his side of the story I kept hearing the same things reiterated “Well he…” and “And She….” and “I was just retaliating”. By this time some kids had gathered around (if you don’t know by now, kids are naturally nosey) and I said to them “I don’t get why you feel like y’all have to retaliate and I don’t get why you have to provoke someone in the first place. You don’t see Sarah (my friend who helps out there as well) and I calling each other names. You don’t see me getting mad when Ashby (another friend who works there) hits me with a ball”. It was interesting the reaction I received afterwards, it was just silence. Now I can’t say that since then everyone has been little angels, I can’t say that five people got saved due to those couple of sentences, but what I can say is that the staff is doing there part. See my words would have fallen on deaf ears had my actions not reflected my words and most certainly one of the kids would have happily stepped right up to call me out on my hypocrisy, but thankfully they weren’t able to.

Words mean nothing if your actions aren’t in check with them. You can quote any Scripture from the Bible that you want to, you can start any Bible study you want to, you can smile as big as you want, but if your life outside of an outreach, church, etc… is different, then somewhere along the line, you’ve missed the point. To be completely honest, one of the things that gets me the most is when people sing about God, read about God, or talk about God, then ten minutes later they’re talking about the person that they hate, the party they’re going to next weekend, or they go on a cynical rant. It contradicts the very thing they were promoting just a little bit ago and it’s not good.

Keep in mind people are ALWAYS watching (not promoting paranoia, you know what I mean). So make sure you’re following the same Christianity that you’re marketing to an unsaved world.